6.30.2005
A Boo Boo day!!
I have just had a super duper bad day. Yep what's new right? Another day in the tragic life of gaya..bah!!
Well, actually, it started out kinda alright. Met Revat at tekka and we went hunting for the new Ananda Bhavan restaurant, which turned out to be only ALRIGHT. Not that spectacular or anything la. There was just alot of items to choose from and us both being the most indecisive idiot on earth, took at least 15 minutes to decide on idli (in my case) and some chaat thing (in revat's case). We spent about an hour and half there just talking about life and stuff, before finally deciding to get out there. After which we headed off to check out the guy that Revat was talking about at the old Anandha Bhavan. Yep we were THAT bored! Then i made the damn good decision (with a bit of help from Vinod and Revat) of ditching tuition, since the mother has been just so damn irritating. Yep so we hung out at Tekka Mall..yep bloody boring shops there i say! Then we sat down at Jollibean to talk about some exciting stuff (yep that's just gonna remain private), before dad turned up.
Yep so that's when my day basically went downhill. I spent about an hour trying to convince daddy to handle sakthi the right way before finally giving up. So now i have finally decided to give up on trying to be a good daughter/sister. People just don appreciate my efforts man..and its just so difficult to help when others refuse to listen. It's just bloody frustrating and i have been feeling so fucked up cos of this..and i have been spending the past 2 weeks worrying about this only to realise that no one really bothers about it enough to take any action..so yeah i am just not going to bother. BAH!!
So anyway, after gym, i was supposed to meet vinod at bbdc at 740. Dad was supposed to drive me there but he said he had work so i had to make my way there on my own. So i went all the way from city hall to boon lay. I was there at 720 and thinking that i could make it to bbdc in 20 minutes, i decided to take the bus. But the bus came only at 730 but i still decided to go all the way to bbdc cos i had told my baby so.
But OH NO..that's totally not appreciated. Yep i basically got fucked up for not going there in time. And he told me to get back to jurong point and meet him there. And get this...even after i did that, he slammed down the phone on me thrice when i called to ask him where he was. That was enough to make me bloody fucking angry. Totally not being appreciated there. And when he comes he apologises and expects me to no longer be angry anymore. Nah-uh not possible there maybe!! So anyway, i finally managed to calm myself down though i am not forgetting what happened today. Bleaugh!!
I realise that the more i try to please others, the more i get myself hurt. So from now on i am just gonna stop being an idiot and just do things as i please. I am not gonna get unnecessarily worried about others and i am damn well not gonna try to make other people happy. And no more making an extra effort to please others. None of that anymore. I am taking charge of my own life. No one has a say over my life. I think from all the things i have gone through, i can safely say i am the best person to make the best decisions for myself. And if you can't deal with the things i do or the way i do it, then just fuck off. I don have to justify my actions to you.
OKay i am glad i got that out of my system. Feel much better now. Alrite nite nite folks!
Well, actually, it started out kinda alright. Met Revat at tekka and we went hunting for the new Ananda Bhavan restaurant, which turned out to be only ALRIGHT. Not that spectacular or anything la. There was just alot of items to choose from and us both being the most indecisive idiot on earth, took at least 15 minutes to decide on idli (in my case) and some chaat thing (in revat's case). We spent about an hour and half there just talking about life and stuff, before finally deciding to get out there. After which we headed off to check out the guy that Revat was talking about at the old Anandha Bhavan. Yep we were THAT bored! Then i made the damn good decision (with a bit of help from Vinod and Revat) of ditching tuition, since the mother has been just so damn irritating. Yep so we hung out at Tekka Mall..yep bloody boring shops there i say! Then we sat down at Jollibean to talk about some exciting stuff (yep that's just gonna remain private), before dad turned up.
Yep so that's when my day basically went downhill. I spent about an hour trying to convince daddy to handle sakthi the right way before finally giving up. So now i have finally decided to give up on trying to be a good daughter/sister. People just don appreciate my efforts man..and its just so difficult to help when others refuse to listen. It's just bloody frustrating and i have been feeling so fucked up cos of this..and i have been spending the past 2 weeks worrying about this only to realise that no one really bothers about it enough to take any action..so yeah i am just not going to bother. BAH!!
So anyway, after gym, i was supposed to meet vinod at bbdc at 740. Dad was supposed to drive me there but he said he had work so i had to make my way there on my own. So i went all the way from city hall to boon lay. I was there at 720 and thinking that i could make it to bbdc in 20 minutes, i decided to take the bus. But the bus came only at 730 but i still decided to go all the way to bbdc cos i had told my baby so.
But OH NO..that's totally not appreciated. Yep i basically got fucked up for not going there in time. And he told me to get back to jurong point and meet him there. And get this...even after i did that, he slammed down the phone on me thrice when i called to ask him where he was. That was enough to make me bloody fucking angry. Totally not being appreciated there. And when he comes he apologises and expects me to no longer be angry anymore. Nah-uh not possible there maybe!! So anyway, i finally managed to calm myself down though i am not forgetting what happened today. Bleaugh!!
I realise that the more i try to please others, the more i get myself hurt. So from now on i am just gonna stop being an idiot and just do things as i please. I am not gonna get unnecessarily worried about others and i am damn well not gonna try to make other people happy. And no more making an extra effort to please others. None of that anymore. I am taking charge of my own life. No one has a say over my life. I think from all the things i have gone through, i can safely say i am the best person to make the best decisions for myself. And if you can't deal with the things i do or the way i do it, then just fuck off. I don have to justify my actions to you.
OKay i am glad i got that out of my system. Feel much better now. Alrite nite nite folks!
// posted by the silence is broken @ 12:23 AM 
