1.16.2006
misery
i feel so miserable.
the bf din even ask me how i am feeling. instead he says i always put up a drama and that this time he is not gonna entertain me.
and for some odd reason i agree with him. i wldnt entertain myself as well. though i do hate you for saying that to me. you who are supp to love me no matter wat..if ya feel that way, then maybe u don love me the way i thought you did. i am just an inconvenience that you call upon as and when you need me.
so i asked him for a break-up. i want him to agree, cos i am done with feeling miserable. but at the same time i don want him to agree cos i love him too much. i really don know wat i want anymore.
i am as lost as lost can be.
the bf din even ask me how i am feeling. instead he says i always put up a drama and that this time he is not gonna entertain me.
and for some odd reason i agree with him. i wldnt entertain myself as well. though i do hate you for saying that to me. you who are supp to love me no matter wat..if ya feel that way, then maybe u don love me the way i thought you did. i am just an inconvenience that you call upon as and when you need me.
so i asked him for a break-up. i want him to agree, cos i am done with feeling miserable. but at the same time i don want him to agree cos i love him too much. i really don know wat i want anymore.
i am as lost as lost can be.
// posted by the silence is broken @ 11:03 PM 
